What if?

Always wanted to be one whom your scared to giveupBut it was easy for you,

may be I was the worst person in the universe. 

But I tried the best for you.
There should have been a gentle hold

I know it would be clumpsy for you 

It was equally tough to be on your part

How quietly you took the broken pieces of self and me
No am not complaining. No I am not blaming

But sometimes when I listen to same old songs heard beside

I wonder, what if..

What if you could pull a little more days

What if I could see that old Good me in you
It was all my fault. It was all my deed.

But what if .??



Shift in dependence I am not used to make myself up

I never would write

Hardly walked a step and was carried.around

Afraid to cross the roads when you guided me safe

But the winds have changed
I take walks alone with a bunch of myselves running my head
Beside season of help and helplessness

I like the ink when I write about you

Tried crossing roads to be hit by driving

As am independent now i just get back dusting myself up

And say sorry sir , I am learning


What matters at the end is if its ok or notLessons learnt, smiles got, moments stayed

Times felt, 

After an end to year of togetherness 

In a flash for a mistake unforgivable 

You know, set back,Stay, breathe, be good

To start with is the difficult part

when the routine gets living

Things those matter now will have less value

But its ok. As it was.

No, It doesnt matter

But, no it doesn’t matter now
Looking back at the journey you made

Not everything you were was inconvenient 

You were not filthy to be thought what you are

But, no it doesn’t matter now
Small acts of kindness

Fingers pointed to be laughed at

You took it all and as it got you slow

No, it doesn’t matter now
Do u remember, that corner you sat without informing

Do u remember how hot that yellow bench was in park

And how about the things who saw you over ur mistakes

How was it to close ur eyes and see everything against

Helplessness while the stones came by

Taking hits trying to make it somehow

No, but it doesnt matter now